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Twisted? Pls 3Do kthx!

03/12/2010 Leave a comment

JerBearaim ~ $ lol I want them to bring Twisted Metal back
18:58Meaim ~ $ ooooh
18:58Meaim ~ $ nm twisted metal
18:58Meaim ~ $ Twisted
18:58Meaim ~ $ if 3d0 released too twisted
18:58Meaim ~ $ I would pay 100 dollars for it
18:58JerBearaim ~ $ lol I dont think I know it
18:59Meaim ~ $ I would buy the super deluxe rape my wallet version
18:59JerBearaim ~ $ link?
18:59JerBearaim ~ $ any info on the old original?
18:59 Meaim ~ $

Music – Bury Me – Smashing Pumpkins (when they didn’t suck and Billy didn’t need a good tea bagging) – Gish

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11/30/2009 Leave a comment



Wait….this is not right.  This was not how it looked when I read it when I was 14.

There.  That is better.  For me this will be the cover I summon to mind when I think about this book.  I loved this book.  It touched me, made me laugh, and it made me cry.  My buddy Chad and I read it several times.

Steven had his own battle with the publishers that is in detail at his site:

I am just pleased that Elegy Beach is here:

It had the same magic from the very first sentence.

Even though I had a good inkling where this was headed once I found out the main character’s name, I read it in one sitting last night.  Crawled into bed at 3:00am.

This book did not dissapoint.  There were fewer ‘laugh out loud’ moments than Ariel but had more polish and maturity to it….go figure 20 someodd years had passed in Real/Change worlds.

My wife was at a loss as she did not understand my excitement at seeing it in the book store.

She was understanding as I departed the bedroom to be in peace while I devoured this long awaited treasure.

I cried when Pete and Ariel reunited.

I felt betrayed to learn of Ariel’s lying manipulation…

But then…this is Fred’s tale.  He has a different view of Ariel for how broken his father was at her loss in his life.

I just hope more is to come.

Tuneage:  My Home is the Sea – Bonny Prince Billy

Categories: books, glee, rave, review, zelazny

Creative Writing

09/18/2009 Leave a comment


I am a writer.

I am sure that whoever reads this knows this.

I have file cabs filled with cra….I mean, uh, creative output.

Most of it will never see the light of day.

I am truly focusing on 3 projects.  When I get stuck on one I will hop over to the other one.

This is how I hope to overcome my inability to finish a novel.  I have PLENTY of short stories.

Let’s put some names to these stories/novels/screenplays so I can reference them for future ranting.

1. ER


3. DS

I am currently pretty into ER.

I of course choose a moment that I really want to write to start messing about with my OS.

Who wouldn’t?


For those who don’t know I am a Mac guy.  I loathe Beelzajobbba:


He is a douche.

I could rant for HOURS about what a douche he is.

I digress.

I also love:


I have used them both.

I have been using the mac since like 84/89 I don’t know…a LONG time.

The Mac Plus was the first computer I bought new in 89.

I have been using linux since…hmmm…95?

I used it exclusively at work for a long time.

My new post requires Visio and Project and there are NO good replacements/read/write for those docs in linux ANYWHERE.  I capitulated and use Windows…with a LOT of cygwin for my job.


And putty:


Wow…I digress again.

Well sort of.

The point is that I was interested in being all linuxy for awhile.  There are things in ubuntu linux i truly prefer over the mac and vice-versa.  I grab the ol compaq (the first computer I ever owned that booted into linux FIRST.  I bought it, plugged it in and stuck a linux disk in and installed on it straight away) and stick ub on it.  Long tiresome process that as my fault.

I spent the next couple days after work looking for good writing tools.

Please don’t suggest EMACS….I am staunch Cult of Vi member.

I also do not want to use OOW.

On my mac (Casper VonWhitenstein) I use:


The Scriv.  Scrivener.  El Scrivaducci.

I love this software.  I think…

I know that it is the best out there for getting it done for me.

It has the old fashioned:


Cork-board view for story movement.  Seeing as behind me RIGHT NOW….there is a cork-board for this purpose should tell you how this is for me.  It also has:


Full screen baby.  I love that…  No distractions.  I, of course, being a dude, am visual.

FullScreenEvolvedI put pictures to one side and let that help the contemplation.  NM the crap to the left.  I don’t do that.  Just the pic, the text, and music.  If the dev team put an iTunes controller in there I think I would even REBUY my software.

I use playlists for each story.

I also use:


For the screenplay work.  Nothing comes close for screenplay work as Final Draft.

That being said they are a bunch of monkeyf*ck @sshole douches when it comes to pricing and…


I used to use :


Z write.  This guy has NOT updated even his webpage in forever.  I guess we can assume he is over.

In a prose writer.  You, if you are me, want a good NON LINEAR editor.  Scriv and Z both had this.  The doc contains the ability to make chapters and you just dump what you are working and move to random chapters as you will and write.  Scriv even one ups that with Full Screen and the corkboard.  It out puts to “ready to send” rtfs and what not.


What does ubuntu have?

Nothing that I could find through googling.




Came close.  You don’t have “chapter” insert.  But you can KIND of work around it.  Kate has spell check.  Big bonuses.



Has the fullscreen thing going for it.  What kind of word processor does NOT have spell check.

Lame.  It is a rip on Jer’s WriteRoom:

writeroom-main-screenIt DOES have spell check but is mac only.

I tried more than I could safely say.

I tried windows versioning of Final Draft.  Activation codes just kept failing.  Back in the Final Draft 4 days  I could wine that baby and have no worries.  I even used Final Draft to write my prose back in those days.

I know people are going to suggest :


Yes I tried it.  It has come a long way.  I googled and googled and could not find a way to export as an RTF.


So I would have to copy/paste and then reformat 120-125 pages for a screenplay?  NM if I was doing a novel.


Long story short (too late I know) I went back to Casper and he happily is my writing tool.

Apps make the box….oh….yeah…


Please do NOT write in suggesting the Writer’s Cafe product.  That thing is a hopeless mess of shit.  The storyboard was interesting for about 5 minutes.  It has some good Ideas….it is just executed by retarded monkeys.  The process of writing is hard enough.  To work with something that seems to actively make me want to punch myself for using it?

No thanks.

I welcome any/all ideas people have.


Wasp / Behind The Wall Of Sleep / Bassically / N.I.B. by Black Sabbath

Are you a fan of L4D?

09/11/2009 Leave a comment

I know I am…..My wife knows I am a fan of Left 4 Dead.


If I had a BUNCH of spare money just laying around I would do this:


Drooooool at 00:27….

/me makes Homer Simpson drooling sounds.


A great big Thanks to Pete for making my new monitor seem like a tiny little watch screen.


My Home Is The Sea by Bonnie ‘Prince’ Billy & Matt Sweeney

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09/11/2009 Leave a comment

Found this from 2005.


I just wanted to tag this here to say.
My wife is just the coolest woman.
When the place I was working would not allow computers in the office I handwrote my stories. I discovered that I work better in that organic flow anyhow. It worked.
I would bring home page after page of chickenscratch. Some people think I should have been a doctor my handwriting is so bad.
It isn’t just that either. My handwriting changes DRAMATICALLY dependent on mood or thoughts. It is a messy blur of curves, cursive, long lines, small bumps, upper and lower case, and horizontal lines.
My wonderful wife would take this and turn it into text.
It isn’t just that.
She gave birth to my two boys.
She smells great.
She has a smile that lights up the world.
She can cook.
She is great at math.
She can drive long distances.
She looks great in a bathing suit.
She has stunning eyes.
She is a wonderful mom.
She gets along with my most important friends….less one.
She likes to spend time with me.
She tells the truth.
She has a wit to match mine.

We will stop here to list her worst qualities.

She is grumpy when she is tired.
She beats me too much at cribbage.

Give me a minute…
I am sure I could come up with some more…


She reads Mary Higgins Clark….

I could go on for days listing things I adore about my wife…
Let’s just get to the point:

Her best quality in my book?

She said yes.



Phaedra by Tangerine Dream

Lord of Light

09/10/2009 Leave a comment

Ahhh Roger….

I still miss seeing your name on new books.

Lord of Light:

I personally love this book and cannot go with impartiality on this.

Even some of the finest authors we have today love it:

“I was pleased to get a copy of Roger Zelazny‘s novel Lord of Light the other day. It’s one of my favourite books (I think the first thing author Steve Brust ever said to me was “Let’s have an argument.  Roger Zelazny‘s Lord of Light is the best book anyone’s ever written.” “Ah,” I said, “If you make it best SF book of the 1960s, I’ll go along with it.” “Oh. Fair enough.” It was the first of a long line of failed arguments.) It’s got a blurb from me on it, which I hope sells many copies.”

Neil Gaiman in Neil Gaiman‘s Journal (29 May 2004)

This magnificent opus opens with:

His followers called him Mahasamatman and said he was a god. He preferred to drop the Maha- and the -atman, and called himself Sam. He never claimed to be a god. But then, he never claimed not to be a god. Circumstances being what they were, neither admission could be of any benefit. Silence, though, could.

It jumps about in time, delivers puns, and explores man in relation to himself and the divine.

Zelazny as Sam delivering the goods in a sermon:

I have many names, and none of them matter.

Names are not important… To speak is to name names, but to speak is not important.

A thing happens once that has never happened before. Seeing it, a man looks upon reality. He cannot tell others what he has seen. Others wish to know, however, so they question him saying, ‘What is it like, this thing you have seen?’ So he tries to tell them. Perhaps he has seen the very first fire in the world. He tells them, ‘It is red, like a poppy, but through it dance other colors. It has no form, like water, flowing everywhere. It is warm, like the sun of summer, only warmer. It exists for a time upon a piece of wood, and then the wood is gone, as though it were eaten, leaving behind that which is black and can be sifted like sand. When the wood is gone, it too is gone.’ Therefore, the hearers must think reality is like a poppy, like water, like the sun, like that which eats and excretes. They think it is like to anything that they are told it is like by the man who has known it. But they have not looked upon fire. They cannot really know it. They can only know of it. But fire comes again into the world, many times.

More men look upon fire. After a time, fire is as common as grass and clouds and the air they breathe. They see that, while it is like a poppy, it is not a poppy, while it is like water, it is not water, while it is like the sun, it is not the sun, and while it is like that which eats and passes wastes, it is not that which eats and passes wastes, but something different from each of these apart or all of these together. So they look upon this new thing and they make a new word to call it. They call it ‘fire.’

“If they come upon one who still has not seen it and they speak to him of fire, he does not know what they mean. So they, in turn, fall back upon telling him what fire is like. ‘As they do so, they know from their own experience that what they are telling him is not the truth, but only a part of it. They know that this man will never know reality from their words, though all the words in the world are theirs to use. He must look upon the fire, smell of it, warm his hands by it, stare into its heart, or remain forever ignorant. Therefore, ‘fire’ does not matter, ‘earth’ and ‘air’ and ‘water’ do not matter. ‘I’ do not matter. No word matters. But man forgets reality and remembers words. The more words he remembers, the cleverer do his fellows esteem him. He looks upon the great transformations of the world, but he does not see them as they were seen when man looked upon reality for the first time. Their names come to his lips and he smiles as he tastes them, thinking he knows them in the naming. The thing that has never happened before is still happening. It is still a miracle. The great burning blossom squats, flowing, upon the limb of the world, excreting the ash of the world, and being none of these things I have named and at the same time all of them, and this is reality — the Nameless.

Lord of Light:

Lord of Light tracks Sam’s journey in his strife with Heaven and his quest to bring it down due to its many abuses of the people. Sam is a beautifully painted, flawed hero.

It ends, bittersweet, and leaves you longing to know Sam better.

This is Zelazny in his best, and unfortunately, early period. He tackled the big beasts early on.

He was always good but never better than in the late 60s to mid seventies. As I said earlier:

“I still miss seeing his name on new books.” You could always count on him delivering you a quick, sparely written, book that would pack more of a punch than any other author in the genre in a 1/3 of the pages…and this, along with Creatures of Light and Darkness, is him at the pinnacle of his ability.

Everything’s Going On – LA version by Dead Meadow

Categories: books, rave, review, zelazny

Bill Amend does Penny Arcade

09/10/2009 Leave a comment

Crossover guest strips is a very common thing in the webcomics world but I tell you…
I was thrilled:

Bill Amend, of FoxTrot fame, guest-stripped the boys of Penny Arcade.

Being a big fan of these two it was thrilling to see it.
As their comic page is time sensitive:

Bill Amend’s Guest Strip for PA


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